The Mad House I Call my Head

I know it’s been a while, but I just thought I should update you guys on things. Currently, life is looking a bit topsy-turvey. I’m an English student at college who is struggling to make decisions on which university to go to and what to do there. I am also unpaid teaching assistant who feels a little like she is out of her depth. But mostly I am a struggling young adult who is trying hard to balance working, college, a social life and seeing my other half who is at university already.

21105435_10155783197826907_2628850282580376349_nFor months now, I have been reading and re-reading prospectus after prospectus after prospectus, and to be totally honest I still don’t feel like I could make a decision on where to go after college. I think that the whole thing of applying to university, may be fun for some, but for others its jut a mass of stress and unneeded worrying. I have loved seeing universities. They’re so different from college and school, the grounds and buildings and the different cities.  My favourite out of the couple my mum and I have seen is Sheffield Hallam. Its close to home, close to my boyfriend and has a branch of the company I work for there. It’s so diverse, in one city you have the big urban shopping centre and town, the big industrial companies and warehouses and then you have what I believe is the biggest attraction for many- The Peak District. I’m not really an outdoorsy person but my job makes me want to go explore places. I hear from so many people about these amazing places to go walking and have found many myself when walking my dog.


Walking with Poppy, my adorable springer spaniel, is almost like an escape from the stress of my courses at college and work and university application. Now, I’m not saying reading isn’t still a great escape but walking along the river bank with Poppy gets me out the house and gives me a few minutes away from words. Which I honestly feel like I need after a long day at college fending for myself.

That’s another thing in itself.  Our college often call themselves a “support network” but when it really comes down to it, there isn’t any many members of this “support network” there for you. Sometimes I feel like college are making us do a lot more than we should be doing on our own. I personally suffer with anxiety and do not receive very much help in dealing with this. In all honesty, I emailed someone in this “network” the other week and pretty much word vomited in the email and sent it. My rely was something along the lines of “Don’t worry, it’s all fine”. That is not helpful when there is so much going on right now.

What I’m really trying to say is, I’m sorry for ditching this. I will get better at this and keep updating, but most of it might complete rubbish so I’ll apologize in advance. If anyone has any suggestions to help with everything and anything I wrote please get in touch in the usual ways.

Sprinkle some sparkle into your life

Spacing Sparkle xox